Second Language Acquisition Final Paper Identity and Meaning-Making in Teenagers’ Second Life Activity 英文三 971002033 王炳璿 Hogan Introduction The record of on-line chat is a suitable material to learn how teenage students associate themselves with the peer group. I am most interested in the interaction between them, the students, since I have the background of sociology learning. On this respect, I think I will take some of the idea from behaviorism, along with the knowledge we learn from ecological aspect. The environment is highly emphasized, rather than the Chomskian perspective of innate ability of language learning. I look from the point of view of people’s interaction, and thus concluding from that, the construction of meaning. Like the question I put forth on the presentation of chapter 2, “what is language?” Well, lots of the students in class agreed that language is mainly something about communication and meaning making. It is all about transporting meaning from one person to another (speaker and listener). Meaning appears when the language is being used by people, not generating all by itself. A quick example from our Theater Performance this semester will explain for me. (One thing I just found that in role-play, meaning is highly fluent, unfixed, which I assume it comes from the transitional state of people back and forth from reality to fiction.) I played the character Tom in a play. TOM: His position is that of a shipping clerk, mother. AMANDA: A job you will have if you have more get-up! The “get-up” here originally means the ambitious and aggressive intention for a working man, with which a man earns himself a better job with better payment. The meaning remains as the condition stays the same. But after I had my physical collapse, the pun was created. The circumstance (with the people in it) now was that I, unable to neither stand nor walk, sat in the wheelchair, talking to my mother, Amanda. Now read the text again and see how it goes differently. The “get-up” changes from an attitude to the physical condition that I wasn’t able to do. From this example which the actors in the play found hilarious, I’m trying to say that the meaning is never fixed. Instead, it comes along with the environment and the people in it. (Which according to van Lier, this is called “the affordance”.) Likewise, in the on-line chat in Second Life, the students underwent a similar process of entering the world of fiction, where they took up different roles. But in the meantime, they didn’t seclude themselves completely from the reality. They brought some pieces of real life into role-play, the virtual world of Second Life. Therefore, they not only played a role, but also kept their original identities in reality and it became more interesting when they were in fact having a dual self participating in the chatting activity. Abstract The paper contains two main theses. The first one is the process of finding identity and the second one is the process of meaning-making. Both are done by the use of language. Language here is a powerful tool. It is said to be fluxional. Though grammar may appear important, the most stunning thing I realized over the past two months is that there is no such thing that is so stiff in the world of language, not the use, the meaning, or the pronunciation. What’s more, it changes when we use it and because of that, it facilitates our need to communicate with this special characteristic. Even, there are so much variations and possibilities in it, with which we can create language play. This of course happens most often in activities, role playing for example. The paper makes use of the students’ on-line chat in Second Life, through a series of small games. Their situation is of all the most interesting, being transitional between the two worlds of reality and virtual; two sets of linguistic background, one in Chinese, one in English. I will discuss more and deeper into these two aspects. In the first part of identity, I put forth the idea of joking relation, which is very useful in looking at the students’ interactions and behaviors. Method Joking relation and relation of avoidance First I am going to explain the idea of “joking relation” and the oppositional idea of “relation of avoidance”, which I learned this semester in Spencer’s Renaissance Drama. (David Graeber, Manners, Deference, and Private Property, 696-703) Relation of avoidance is something that comes from the system of hierarchy. It is mainly constructed by one’s property and is discreetly categorized. Take the relation between the noble and peasant for example; the noble owns wealth and this furthermore enhance their higher status, compared to the peasant, who owns less in fortune. The contrary idea is the “joking relation”, which simply means the opposite. It doesn’t necessarily have something to do with “cracking a joke”, but much more to do with the violation of normal regulation. The relationships of joking are rather loose and arbitrary, compared to that of avoidance. In tribes, people don’t vary much in terms of property, and thus they’re not stiffly categorized into different hierarchy. The reason why I pick this idea as one of my major method to explain the students’ on-line chat is obvious-they’re in joking relation. Students, or as we say peers, are on the same level. That is, they are not differentiated from category to category. The relation between them is easy, relaxing, instead of tense, highly classified. So of course cracking a joke is in the realm of joking relation because it violates the common usage of language and creates new meanings in it. Identity Building identity is another main theme in this paper. A little psychological knowledge, according to Erikson (1959), he pointed out in a chart that there are 8 stages, with each has its own crisis, throughout the life-long process of “self-synthesis”, in which the main crisis during the stage of teenage is finding one’s own identity. At this age, teenagers tend to look for a group they can identify with and from which they solidify their identity. They interaction is important because how he or she plays a part in it determines how others judge him or her and hence influencing the identification. Meaning-making The meaning-making is the third part of my perspective to look into their chat. This is also the part where I am going to take some of the approaches from representation. But unlike the Peircean theory, I emphasize more on the interpretation of sentences, how students encode and decode. Based on the essay After Babel: Aspects of Language and Translation by George Steiner (1998), in which he viewed translation from the perspective of language study, I learned that every speaker and listener (sender-receiver model) is a translator who decodes the information. It involves the restructuring that occurs in information-processing (McLaughlin, 1987). But note that a translation is not merely imitating but independent as he or she is. Hence the process of representation is a lot more complex than I thought. At least I know one thing, “grammar is not prerequisite of communication, rather it is a byproduct of communication.”(Hopper, 1998) The emphasis on correctness is not so important here but how students translate the information. Discussion Identity in joking relation and relation of avoidance The topic of “self” and the development involved in language learning/using appeal me, too. “Self exists objectively from the outset by virtue of its embodiment” (Butterworth, 1999). Self is constantly being constructed, not fixed. A person forms the idea of self, or even, his or her identity among people all the time. It is a flowing movement of changing and adjusting to the interaction with people. Now I am hyper-sensitive to this word, “interaction” because that’s what it is all about, interacting with others, having conversation. From joking relation and relation of avoidance, I discuss the identity. I selected some of the sentences to form my idea, such as where Rampton (2002) points out that “teenagers spend enormous effort in experimenting with and establishing language rituals that create and solidify their identities and sense of self.” It’s clear that I am going to use the conversation, i.e. the on-line chat, between the students, especially Stella’s, since I set out with social respect. What’s more, the main theme, ecological linguistic, is more of a study about relation between people and the environment, altogether in a social world. And the reason why I bold-mark the word “ritual” is because this is actually a fairly crucial idea. In The Uses of Goods by Mary Douglas (43), she manifested the idea of ritual in the paragraph of fixing public meaning. Ritual, in essence, is like a ceremony, suggesting the action where one thing moves from one status to another in a public sense. Just like graduation ceremony as one type of ritual, students move from “undergraduates” to “graduates”. It shows the change of identities. Also, being public is important, too. It requires more than two people to acknowledge the change. We are going to see a perfect example here. At [03:44], Stella tried to respond to what Jess said at [03:43], “stella looks stupid but smart indeed”. She said, “look smart and indeed smart” in return, exclaiming that her achievement of solving the riddle was a well-done performance (The P1 in types of language play.)(Cook, 2000) that made her noticeable. She wanted everyone to know that actually she’s not stupid. This the time when her words became a kind of ritual, making known by all the others her change of status, or people’s image of her. Apparently, Stella didn’t want to be labeled “stupid” in the peer group. Therefore, by this chance she proved that by her performance and by using her own language, which is grammatical parallel to the one Jess said, she could move from the original “Stulla” to a new person who is not stupid. The first example gave us a glance at how Stella built her identity among her peers during the conversation. Speaking of it, chat record is in fact a good material because it is daily and casual, enough to show us the habits of them. They have the habit of chatting on-line in such platform as MSN. I believe the chatting on Second Life is not so different. As a consequence, their relation in reality was brought to the virtual world. By that I was saying that although they took up roles, they still shoed the actual self in this activity. Using the idea of joking relation, the line is not discreetly separated. Just the opposite, we have to think of the world outside the Internet so as to look at the text with more contemplation. [03:31] Stella Summerwind: Isabella eats shit ^^ [04:09] Stella Summerwind: claidy gp die! One reason I say this is because sometimes Stella addressed to the same person but she called her with her real name, instead of the user name they establish. In the text above, she was talking to the same person, Isabella, whose real name in real life was Claidy. The boundary was being broken down. This jumping from two identities is the flowing of meaning, unfixed identity of two worlds, again the idea of joking relation. Another thing about joking relation is that it often involves the action of attack. Joking attack, like young animals playing together, which in the eyes of ours it seems like fighting, is the action of retaining the joking relation. I interpret some of the dialogues as the so-called joking attack. (a) [04:14] Nina Arnica: stulla!!! [04:14] Stella Summerwind: what’s wrong with u Nina! (b) [03:31] Stella Summerwind: Isabella eats shit ^^ (c) [04:09] Stella Summerwind: claidy gp die! The above seemingly rude words were actually the evidence of joking attack. This is way how joking relation is maintained. Like I said, if two people keep a distance, as if a line is drawn between them, then they’re in the relation of avoidance. Literally, they may not touch each other or, even, speak to the other. In the joking relation, however, the participants are free and open. They may behave relatively unregulated. And the behaviors include argument, questioning, criticism, ambiguities, and the multiplicity of meaning, such as puns and jokes. Based on P2 in language play, use in congregation and/or intimate interaction, Stella answered the mocking from Nina by talking back. This can be seen more like the casual interaction between good friends instead of admonishment. “What’s wrong with you!” can be interpreted in a harsh way. But still, this can suggest the intimacy, seeing that only real, nice friends can call each other names without harming the harmony. By doing so, she can actually pull both of them closer, which is good when there was competition going on and they were in the same team. The joking relation was to affirm the intimacy. By speaking dirty language to the person at the opposite team, also who had just mistakenly shot her to death, Stella here suggested the antagonism against Isabella, P3 in language play. But after all, they’re still friends in reality so she didn’t want to put the words too harsh. Therefore, she added the expressional mark “^^” to show that she was not actually angry and to soften the voice of that sentence which can be categorized as a non-verbal cues. In the world of Internet, we are not able to see or hear when only the sentences can be seen. The basic tools for communication such as expressions, gestures, and even the voices or tones are deprived. When only words are left on the screen to be seen, lots of information is lost in this process. Thus, some of the adjustment is being invented. Emoticons are most commonly seen and popular for it is easy to use and grasp. The simply expressional marks are like smiling eyes “^^” or the smiling face “” (made up by a colon plus a right bracket). These are to facilitate our needs to communicate when lack of the above-mentioned mechanism. In the last example she showed antagonism because Isabella was the rival in the other team when she was, at the same time, the person who killed Stella at the beginning. But this is much harsher than “Isabella eats shit ^^”. Therefore I categorized it as the inversion of social order as to tell someone to die (P5). Of course, this is also “alternative reality” so Stella was being tough to the character in the game though here she was calling the actual name in the reality, which further intensifies the words. The joking relation here is somewhat different to Nina and to Isabella. I judge it to be that when joking-attacking Nina, it was a sign of membership. But to Isabella, she attacked her in that they were enemies. Still, it doesn’t mean that they are against each other in reality. So to pull the action of attack back a little bit, she applied the emoticon. This, however, is on the term of relation of avoidance. Because she needed to uphold the friendship in reality in order to differ from it, Stella took two different approaches, one to Isabella, one to Claidy. Meaning-making process Again and again the Van Lier reminds us in his book that, from the ecological perspective, language is not merely the mixture of grammar, sentences, but something alive with people using it, making meaning of it. And because of that, the language use differs from person to person, each having characteristic his or her own and thus creating the presence of self. (108) On page 109, it is even more firmly asserted, “language is not a ‘fixed code’”. On page 110, the author gives us several aspects of signs, among which I will focus more on the artifacts, the human-made ones. These happen when in certain circumstances (on-line chat) words come to their new meanings, uses. People are the machines of making meanings whereas the language people use is more like a play ground for all the things to make happen. On page 55(van Lier), as the opening, “language is embedded in the physical and social world, and is part of other meaning-making systems;” I agree with that. On the other hand, I hold more doubt on Chomsky’s theory about innate ability to acquire a language. The first example he gives us on page 56, the “THNAK you VEry MUCH!” is an evident that we do learn from the environment, from people around; and we use the language, the phrases for example, to interact and communicate. “This phrase becomes a tool, an instrument to get attention and to cause merriment,” I immediately think of that in the midterm paper, I point out that Stella did try a lot to achieve this, to gain attention or, most of all, to cause merriment. Stella, from my daily observation, is a girl who tries very hard to be cute. But that doesn’t mean she’s pretentious, but just the opposite. She’s cute because she’s real to herself and shows real feelings. She might not be as skillful as Matt in English, but she has her own ways of using language and often brings us laughter! In the conversation, Stella used a lot of words to show her excitement or enjoyment such as “ya” which she uses in real life as well. Plus, she’s not coy when it comes to jokes, even when those jokes are coming toward her. For example at [03:44] she said “look smart and indeed smart” to face a joke on her. This shows that she can even turn it into her own advantage by altering the word a little bit. This usage in the form of grammatical parallel tells us that Stella can be really smart! On page 67, however, I do find something that is again related to my report. As it says, “Indices…can be used analytically as indicators of the success or failure of a person’s linguistic sign work…” It is a matter of “the open flow between iconic and symbolic systems”, which I think it would play a major part in conversation. But “ya” doesn’t play a crucial role in interaction. Another type of language play that appears the most is probably the non-verbal cues, i.e. emotional symbols or icons for expressions. However, these symbols she used are somewhat different, especially that at [03:53] =皿= 凹. This sign signifies a rock gesture. Since it’s composed by Chinese character, non-native speaker would not be able to comprehend it. Then again, this is a powerful and quick way to express one’s feeling about the situation or the event. Others are like “^^” which is a much simpler one suggesting smiling eyes. Other players might use “” or “lol” which are more commonly seen in English speaking countries. I saw these in comments on Youtube or other websites a lot. They are “Types of interaction that can be particularly revealing are stories, jokes, and conversations…vehicles for indexing…”(67), along with three-part set of macrofunctions on page74, how language functions or rather, how speakers use it is important as well, especially when jokes and storytelling take up a big portion in their chat. Above all, the interpersonal function suits the most for its relations with identities and relationships, which is a big issue in discussing their chat. Echoing with the earlier paragraph, teenagers would try to create solidarity or to find their identities amid their peers. In the class we talked about dirty language, this can also be seen in the dialogue between Stella and Nina. This interaction may also suggest their action of maintaining a relationship. As what I nailed down, parodies contain semantic instability and multiplicity of meaning, such as puns and jokes. This part I focus on how Stella used language play, how she played with jokes. Switching codes, from one language to another, can be semantic instability (Amber wants to da deer.). This brings me back to Cook’s types of language play, in which S1 stands for the intermediate meaning, foreign language as one example. And jokes may provide meaning-drifting. Non-verbal cues like emoticon. (=皿= 凹) Therefore, the affordance we talked today becomes available. On page 92, figure 4.2 shows us the correlation of perception, interpretation, and action, given the environment of affordance. From the top of the page, “it is action potential, and it emerges as we interact with the physical and social world” to the bottom of the same page, “affordances arise out of participation and use, and learning opportunities arise as a consequence of participation and use.” During the on-line chat, students were playing and participating in the game. And because of this participation of the students, the affordance thus existed. The environment provides the opportunities for them to use English but also Chinese at some certain occasion (Da jia); and they were to tell jokes. As it says on page 101, “learners… can orient to those cues and act upon them appropriately in interactions.” In conversation, students, i.e. the participants, can modify their language use according to the others, and to the affordance. Example is around [03:49], Stella noticed that in this game, they used “da jia” instead of “fight”, so she altered her word choice and at [03:52] she screamed “打架!打架!打架!” Result Reference
Cruelty in Nature
4th Paper
Cruelty in Nature
I don’t think the debate over being a vegetarian or not would ever cease. Just this day, I was having my lunch in 7th restaurant in campus. The veggie meal there recently caught my appetite. And that was when I spotted the TV news reporting that there was a shop in mainland China still provides meat of dogs. Then I asked my friend, what’s wrong with eating dogs, since they’re nothing more than another kind of animal? It could be that people had already see dogs not as any animals but human’s best friends, she answered. We give them names, feed them, and play with them. They’re not like pigs, whose consummation is destined to be human’s consumption. But for those who kept pigs as pets, which are given names as well as dogs, they wouldn’t think of their pets as meal. So in a word, it still comes back to how we treat them. The value of these animals’ lives is simply at our hand.
Just like eating veggie, some may claim that this is the best way of not “taking life” (殺生). The opponent might say, plants and vegetables all have life, too. That’s the debate I mentioned that would never come to a solid conclusion. Furthermore, as posted at the restaurant, an obvious slogan said “save our earth from eating vegetables”. I sincerely doubt that. Doesn’t that mean cutting down forest for more plantations? Things are never that simple, including this issue on vegetarianism.
Let’s focus more on this “cruelty in nature”. Food chain is an indubitable rule. So what makes it condemnable of eating meat? Just like the water bug that sucks the life out of a frog, there is nothing unnatural about it. Though shocked by the fact that the existence off one creature’s life depends on another’s lose of it, we shouldn’t accuse any of this. Therefore I would not say eating meat is ever a bad thing. Still, just like the predators in nature, we generally think of them as villains, in contrast to those harmless animals like a herd of sheep or gazelle. Then again, what’s wrong about them? They’re simply following their basic instinct and the biological need for food. This traces everything that happens in the food chain to the mystery of nature. Is there such idea of cruelty in the creation of nature? Why one creature must feed on another? Why do people have to eat meat, regardless of eating vegetables also as ingesting a form of life? Killing animals for food seems a sin or a crime act.
How about human nature? On moral ground we say someone cruel because of his or her way of treating people, perhaps physical abuse or brutality. Committing domestic is cruel, homicide as well, which gives me a new idea about cruelty. We should not think too highly of this term. It is after all a term that was coined for human society, which is somehow believed to be segregated from the genuine wilderness. Killing animals is not in the realm of cruelty, while killing people is. This could suggest that the situation of dog eat dog is a kind of cruelty, whether pressured by any condition or not. Need for food is an excellent alibi for that.
How about eating dogs? Why do we think of eating dogs an improper thing? Dog is an animal which is not higher species than human races. So by this, we may roughly say that dogs, as “human’s best friend”, are characterized, or even personified, into a higher level, given a value of life which is being appreciated by us. This renders it a sinful thing to do to see them as meat.
In conclusion, cruelty after all is never a term of Nature but in human nature. And this human nature is far from the primitive setting for us. That is to say we create an entirely new environment for us and establish principles for it. This society is a totally different creation from that of the earth. What’s ridiculous may not be eating dogs or not, but concerning eating meat as a destruction to nature and think of food chain as the cruelty in nature. This proves that even when we set ourselves away from the true nature, we want to bite more than we could chew by applying all these rules, based on morality, to the wilderness. Nature itself has always been too vast and profound for us to understand. This way of generalization or identification of it into our own society or moral values would turn out to be nothing but running counter to the natural way it goes. The best way is still follow what the nature path leads to, instead of trying to simplify things but actually complicate them.
When I was not Biking at Night
When I was not Biking at Night
People wandering in the campus could have never noticed that the size of this school itself is an interesting subject, which I wonder a lot when strolling, by any means-on foot or on a bike, around the environment. The territory of our university, on one hand, does not widely expand like those located in the centre of the pineapple field in southern counties, but on the other hand, not as small as those which timidly sited in the landscape of big cities. I notice it a soon as the first month I moved into the dormitory and at night, when everything still unfamiliar to me set into a more uneasy darkness of the nightfall, drifting about every places within the confinement of this school and getting myself more acquainted with it. Though, as I mentioned above, I took both measures when I was travelling in school, riding on a bicycle became closer to my preference as days went by. Anyone can easily figure out the time and energy one saves by biking instead of walking, on account of the geographic term “time-space compression”, when hurrying to the next classroom.
And consequently the nightly walk was replaced by biking every night. How should I put this? I simply found it so pleasant to roam through this field, especially at night, under the camouflage from this black velvet curtain. To put forth more directly, ‘tis the silence and the chance to be all alone that attracts me the most. How? There was just too much annoyance going on at day time, social events with classmates, courses to attend and the crowded roads I had to take. Not that I think so highly of myself that all above were looked down by me, but, as I firmly believed even till now, everyone needs the time and space of his or her own so that one can truly learn to appreciate the value and be comfortable with one’s identity, the characteristics that often got lost in the mingling with huge crowds. You are not likely to find them in the classroom with students be orderly seated, or a busy-going diner, let alone the room in the dorm with roommates coming and going all the time. It was the nights at NCU that I find most attractive.
So many nights I have raced in the chilly wind, from one path to another, mapping an imaginary campus inside my head. But not until that night when I first realize another magical aspect with the size of this school. Indeed the whole process was fully sped up by way of the bike at hand. Every main thoroughfare, whether flowers-garnished or not, dimly lighted or not, has the track of me trekking by. So this had been the routine of my life here before I accidently broke it.
What was that fragrance, I thought to myself. A sweet scent diluted in the thin night air I seemed to grasp for seconds but the next moment, it was gone.
That night, I left 107theatre with a mood so deeply, gravely shaken up. What was the film exhibited that night, I don’t remember. What conjures up every time with much vividness is the swell inside of me that sought for an exit to vent all the overloaded emotions. So I hopped onto my bike, as always, and then started to pedal so hard till I reached the speed of 30km/hr, I assumed. I circled the campus through every major route over and again, in hope that once my strength was worn out, so would be my extravagant sentiments. The result was sore legs and thighs, heavy panting and emotions that hadn’t gone anywhere else. I thought I shall go into sleep on this condition, before I accidently came to a path that, though lampposts could be seen, no single trace of light existed. This part of the school, now under construction, has always been dimly illuminated as if it never occurs to people that there is such a place that still belongs to the campus.
When I dropped by, the fainted floral aroma caught my full sense, especially when sank in the night, one’s vision is deprived by the heavy darkness. There only left the most primitive sense of olfaction that lies quietly in the instinct of human beings of which the importance has been constantly overlooked. Therefore I stopped all the effort with the bicycle and followed this almost barbarian-like sense, with a much sophisticated ardent, I must add, tracing down that beautifully created scent wherever it was emitted and whatever kind of flower it had belonged to. Not so surprisingly the source was the gardenia, a fragrant flower commonly seen planted at the front yard or the balcony of one’s house, for the rich smell it produces in full bloom. But what’s surprising is that how can a vast plantation of gardenia alongside the road be left in darkness, almost deserted, without attention or admiration from passers-by.
Let’s turn the clock to the daytime and we’ll see that when this relatively narrow and less-passed-through path is full of sunshine, people, if any, notice only the destination ahead of them. What’s more, it has often the vision that dominated a human’s sensory world. Wouldn’t it be a great pity that the fragrance of gardenia left unrecognized?
What does it have to do with the size I mentioned? Two aspects.
As I made use of the term “time-space compression”, you get to the destination with less time consumption if bicycle is at help. But the shorter time would also mean that you lose the time to carefully examine what’s going on around. I couldn’t have notice it until I slow down my bike. Otherwise, the delicate smell would be no difference to the swift of breeze. Do go so fast! That’s what I perceived.
Second aspect emphasizes on the human senses. We unfortunately rely too much on our eyes solely, regardless of other sense unless being triggered. When sitting in front of the desk, reading through page by page, did you just realize what was the smell coming and going through the nostrils as we respire? A light one, perhaps. But that could also count as one, whether it’s actually from the living foliage or the wooden smell from the aged cabinet. It is the sense of smell that goes deepest into our organic form, and even the emotional sphere. Pheromone is perceived through a spot located inside our olfactory organs. Smell, good or bad, helps the storage of memory, situational, as it is proposed by cognitivist.
To conclude, how the size of our school is magical is that the size, though regulated by the fences around, is nevertheless variable. Different speed and another perspective of sense give way to a new map of the campus. It could the map of one’s memory, or the smell, as I put forth. This is the practice to the mastery of multiple points of view. A walk can be more than a walk, and the campus can do more as well.
Second Language Acquisition Midterm Exam PART II
Second Language Acquisition Midterm Exam
PART. I
PART. II
| (L1) patterning of form |
| [04:45] Miranda Arandur: bright
… [04:48] brighter [04:48] Flowerqiao Foodiboo: haha [04:48] Amber Wildmist: brightest During this part of the game, they were trying to come up as many words associating with the idea of “shiny objects” as possible. Miranda previously said “bright” as one proposal. Stella followed after three seconds and said “brighter”, echoing with Miranda’s word choice. This applies the grammatical parallel in comparative form of adjectives. By adding “er”, Stella put forth “brighter” as another choice to describe shiny objects. This further led Amber, another team member, to said “brightest”, the superlative from the same adjective. And this parallel on grammar was effective to make others laugh because these words are basically the same but they kept using it as different word choice by simply changing it grammatical form. |
| (L2) emphasis on exact wording |
| [03:43]Jess Galliard: stella looks stupid but smart indeed
[03:44]Amber Wildmist: stulla … [03:44]Dora Rinq: hahaha [03:44] look smart and indeed smart! After Stella solved the puzzle, Jess made fun of her by saying that though Stella looks stupid, but she can actually figure out the riddle. And Amber hence coined a new word “stulla” by combing “stupid” and “Stella”. In response to them, Stella answered “look smart and indeed smart!” This can be broken down in several aspects. One is the grammatical parallel she created by copying the sentence Jess just made. Another is the emphasis on exact wording, i.e. smart. She emphasized that she is smart on the outside and the inside as well. |
| (L3) repetition |
| [04:35] Flowerqiao Foodiboo: haha are you tired?
… [04:35] Miranda Arandur: a liitle(little) bit … [04:35] rest rest Here by repeating the verb twice, Stella was trying to create a sense of cuteness. What’s more, she’s making a pun on the nickname of the subject she was talking to. Miranda, whose nickname, derived from her Chinese name, was “修修”, was whom Stella was addressing to. So Stella said “rest rest”, which in Chinese translated as “休休”, and thus giving it a double meaning to the repetitious wording. |
| (S1) intermediate meaning |
| [04:07] amber da de how!
Watching the combat between Amber, her teammate, and Jess, the rival from the opposite team, and cheering for her teammate, Stella applied a simple, though grammatically wrong, and straightforward approach to make those who shared the Chinese as mother tongue understand quickly. “da de how” is the direct transliteration of “打的好” in Chinese. It is a commonly used applause in Chinese. It is at the same time for the purpose of creating solidarity among her team members, which suits type P3 in the language play. |
| (S2) vital or important subject-matter |
| (S3) reference to an alternative reality |
| [03:01] I’m alive!
Stella was playing a fictional role in the game so when she said “I’m alive!” she didn’t mean the actual self is alive because it was not her who died but the character she was playing died. So this fits in the alternative reality. |
| (S4) inversion of language/ reality relation |
| (P1) focus upon performance and upon the speaker and/or the writer |
| [04:30] amber wants to da(打) deer
[04:31] she did!!!!! [04:31] omg!!!! [04:31] how can u do that! [04:31] deer is cute! In this conversation, Stella was shocked by Amber’s action of shoot a deer. Her words showed both P1 and P6. For P6 it’s her personal value on the cuteness of deer. Also the exclamation “omg!!!!” expressed her shock at the sight of it. As for P1, she was commenting on Amber’s performance. By questioning “how can u do that!” she showed disapproval to this action. |
| (P2) use in congregation and/or intimate interaction |
| (P3) creation of solidarity and/or antagonism and competition |
| [03:31] Dora Rinq: we can’t shoot people at random here
… [03:31] Isabella eats shit ^^ By speaking dirty language to the person at the opposite team, also who had just mistakenly shot her to death, Stella here suggested the antagonism against Isabella. But after all, they’re still friends in reality so she didn’t want to put the words too harsh. Therefore, she added the expressional mark “^^” to soften the voice of that sentence. |
| (P4) no direct usefulness |
| (P5) preservation or inversion of the social order |
| (P6) enjoyment and/or value |
| [03:29] ya! (when she entered the game)
[03:42] ya!!!! (when she solved the puzzle) [03:49] ya! (when she participated in 打架) [04:15] ya!! (when the team she belonged win the first combat) We can tell that Stella used this term quite often during casual conversation. According to my understanding of her characteristic, she does like to say “yeah” as an expression of her enjoyment in things. And the situations listed above which she was in also confirm this idea. The first time she showed her excitement. The second one she showed her accomplishment. The third time is the passion she put in the participation in the game. And the last one is to share the enjoyment of the triumph their team had got. |
Representation
Representation
This is certainly not the first time I came across the material that keeps record of moments in nature. But the thought about the representation in it, that was something new to me.
Mother emailed me interesting PowerPoint slides containing several brilliant pictures caught on the act-the instant of animals’ lives. The first one is a mantis, obviously shocked by the photographer, therefore stands tall, puts its forelegs up high, and fans its wings outward to make itself look bigger, more threatening in order to defend itself; another picture shot an eagle just flying away above the lake and, from the splattering water, picks up a living fish it just stooped upon. Other picture with images of more quiescent state are like young swans cuddled by their mother and a squirrel lying face down on a wooden shelf, so relaxed in the mild sunshine.
Above is one recent experience of my “nature” encounter on pictures. It furthermore leads back to the film Microcosmos, we watched last week, much alike these pictures, that caught many fantastic moments of creatures, oft in a tinier scale. Where the film ended was incredibly unforgettable, in that, topped off with the beautifully melodic soundtrack, the image was an annoying mosquito’s eclosion. Responding to the weekly reading, the affectionate intimacy between the two slugs was also a brilliant shot.
Nevertheless some scenes, such as the predation of an Argiope, or more commonly known as the “black and yellow garden spider”, still aroused my doubt. One grasshopper, one after another, tragically fell onto the adhesive trap of the spider and fell prey of it. It was horrifying enough but when I came clear that, just like many of the Discovery or National Geography documentaries, these shots may very likely to be the manipulation of photographers, which means that the grasshoppers were so unlucky that they were skillfully thrown by people to the deathly spider web to create the sensation a film wants to achieve.
What am I saying here is not meant to be a mere exposé of the natural narration like films, photography, or even essays. The main point is my reflection on the capability of the representation human beings can achieves through different medium. When touching the material like these, we get a look of what nature is like. Moreover, we get emotionally triggered or disturbed for the amazement of this little word we seldom come close or detailed enough for observation. This is a brilliant way of representing the natural wonder for audience to see and to feel.
But, last semester, having read Wordsworth’s poems in English Literature by Professor Kuo, how can students, though shown with the pictures of rainbow and lake views professor took by himself in England, actually comprehend the appreciation or the spiritual elevation by the poet? Just two days ago, we were screened a film called Dead Poets Society. A fantastic work, I have to say. What the main character, Professor Keating, reaffirmed is the importance of truly be in the passion of poems instead of literally apprehending the meaning or the form of them.
If we rely solely on the representation of nature, our sensibility would be gradually withdrawn. There are only pictures photographed by lens, HD images projected by laser beams onto a computer screen, from which I detect no clue of the fluctuation or the flowing force of great Nature. Quoted from Saussure, those were only “nature morte”.
More than ever, I am afraid of the numbness of failing to feel our existence within the Nature and vice versa. Even in the campus of NCU, I have seen the nymph of a greenish mantis, without its wings fully grown, still wanted to threaten me by putting its forelegs up high; also the molting process of a cicada at the evening; even once held a lost sparrow in my palms, directly receiving the tremble, the warmth, and the softness of its feathers from my skin. These are not able to be represented through vocabularies, footages, or pictures. A person has to go through all of the above to understand what I meant by the softness a bird’s feathers are like and how amazing it could be to spot the toil a cicada removing its old skin and the relief when it successfully complete the metamorphosis.
I at time feel futile from the lack of power to show my friends the true beauty lies in the nature around us. But I am pretty sure that if anyone can come with me, we get much more possibility of observing the natural wonder. No works or production of man can ever replace the importance plus the authenticity one can get in the open environment. The mental crisis can’t be healed by reading Lord Byron’s depiction on landscape. But we can surely bath ourselves in the real scenery with just a step toward the world outside that enclosing door.